Stop Being Afraid

This morning was one of those workouts that just was not written toward any of my strengths.  It was 1 minute of pull-ups, rest 1 minute, 2 minutes of wall balls, rest 1 minute, 3 minutes of burpees, rest 1 minute, 4 minutes of wall balls, rest 1 minute, and 5 minutes of burpee pull-ups.  If it sounds like a total suckfest, you would be right.  It was.  Given the limited number of wall balls I subbed 75# thrusters and now have a better grasp on where the term firebreather originated from.

Anyway…

Being a big guy, I hate body weight WODs.  It is just harder for me to move through them.  I knew going into this that I would have a lower rep count than the other guys (I still would love to see them strap on a weight vest, carry the weight I do, and see if they can move the same).  For too long, I have struggled with this.  Way too long.  I dreaded these workouts and honestly wanted to avoid them.  Anything with pull-ups?  Forget it.

I am so sick and tired of that.

Why should I be afraid of anything in that gym?  Seriously?  I can’t think of any good reason.  Last night it really got the gears turning and I thought about that first minute.  It is just one exercise.  Just one minute.  Out of 24 hours in this day.  No biggie at all.  The only thing I can do is go in, work hard, and get better.  I don’t need to lie about my time or inflate the number of reps I get to make me feel better or gain acceptance amongst my peers.  I don’t need to fear movements in the workout because they are harder for me.

I just need to work.  And I did that this morning.

Side note: PR on push press this morning with 3x205 and 1x215.

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  1. keepgoinggreen said: Being a biger guy myself I realize I put limitations on what I think I can do also. After reading this I realize I have to stop comparing myself to others and being afraid. Thanks!
  2. chrystidoeslife said: Hot damn on those push presses!
  3. gillsquirt said: DANG that sounds like a brutal work out… way to go!!!
  4. runningwithguts said: And that attitude is precisely why you get more out of CF than most people. Always on the road to self-improvement! And congrats on the PR :D
  5. southcarolinagirl said: Love this.
  6. sarahcrossfits said: That’s what I love about CrossFit - no matter who you are, there is something that is scary for you, something that hits your weakness. For better or worse, it’ll never be 100% easy :) Way to power through!
  7. shortmom said: Way to go on the PR! I tried to click the heart on this 100x, but tumblr won’t let me.
  8. westcoastrunner said: My fears are similar in that if I see a WOD that I am not good at I wud almost prefer NOT to go…I know better and your rationale is spot on!! Thanks for posting this!
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