I was looking through some photos here at work and came across this one of me on the left from August 2010.  A congressman had come to visit our County and I was there taking photos of the event.  Despite it being hot outside, I remember feeling like the only guy sweating.  Which made me feel like everyone was looking at me wondering why I was so fat.  I used to carry a small handkerchief in my pocket strictly to wipe sweat off my head.  It was so embarrassing to have to do that.  I always felt in the way and out of place. Sometimes it hurts to look at old photos.  To think that I let myself get that way upsets me.  I remember how much it hurt to carry that weight around, both the physical and emotional baggage that comes with being “the big guy”. The photo on the right is a different guy now.  And although I still cant get a decent facial expression to save my life, I am proud that I have made it to where I am.  I am glad that I no longer feel like a sweaty blimp when I walk into a room.  It is nice to carry confidence instead of weight.  Sure, I want to drop a few more pounds and have plenty that I still want to work on.  But for the most part, it is great to just be comfortable in my own skin.
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I was looking through some photos here at work and came across this one of me on the left from August 2010.  A congressman had come to visit our County and I was there taking photos of the event.  Despite it being hot outside, I remember feeling like the only guy sweating.  Which made me feel like everyone was looking at me wondering why I was so fat.  I used to carry a small handkerchief in my pocket strictly to wipe sweat off my head.  It was so embarrassing to have to do that.  I always felt in the way and out of place.

Sometimes it hurts to look at old photos.  To think that I let myself get that way upsets me.  I remember how much it hurt to carry that weight around, both the physical and emotional baggage that comes with being “the big guy”.

The photo on the right is a different guy now.  And although I still cant get a decent facial expression to save my life, I am proud that I have made it to where I am.  I am glad that I no longer feel like a sweaty blimp when I walk into a room.  It is nice to carry confidence instead of weight.  Sure, I want to drop a few more pounds and have plenty that I still want to work on.  But for the most part, it is great to just be comfortable in my own skin.

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  2. hwy283 said: Nice work dude. Don’t worry too much about weight, just focus in being fit. Cheers!
  3. sabbyrunsatl said: I see chest muscles under that shirt!!!!!!
  4. amyrunning said: You look great!
  5. melanieisdoinglife said: Just smile! :)
  6. fat-to-fast said: You look awesome! And your happiness definitely shows!
  7. queenbliss said: A great journey thus far, sir!
  8. runningwithguts said: Smiling might help with the photo expressions. Just a thought. (But also: running a little over two miles yesterday with a 20# ruck? HARD. Makes me question how I did ANYTHING with an extra ~60# on my body…)

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